I Tried Keeping It A Secret

Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies. I admit that I really love him. I do not know since when I fell in love with him. He is a very good man I ever knew. Why do I say like that? Because I knew him for years. I know all about him and he also knew all about me. Except one.. My feelings against him never faded. I want to tell him that I want to wait for him but unfortunately I was not capable to tell him. Sorry. I tried keeping it a secret. Why? Simple answer I can give. Because I won't let him know. Until when? Forever maybe. I know that he really hate trickster. So, I just can say "I am really sorry". 

It's hurt when I knew that he has a 'special person'. Estupido! I should feel happy that at least someone is able conquering him. Finally, he has someone who can take care of him. So, I do not have to worry anymore, someone was taking care of he for me.  I will be happy when he happy there, despite the fact that my heart was hurt. But I will still smile and laugh together with him "while I still have time". I want to create sweet memories with him. That's my promise!! 

My great hope is to laugh as much as I cry, and try to love somebody and have the courage to accept the love in return. Years from now I can picture us still laughing together, still holding hands, and still completely in love. Just like we are now. Best friend!!

"I may just be a little candle in your life .. I may burn out and melt after a little while .. But I wish within that time, my light touches your heart .. Even for a while .."

ROZELLE DANIELLA

Now, I'm 21 years old already. (odoi ~ macam tidak bulih percaya nih.) Thank God I still alive.

Last year, saya celebrate birthday di kalangan ahli keluarga terdekat saja nih. Maaf kepada yang tidak di jemput. (malas mau buat besar-besaran, bukan artis pon. ahaha.) Ada juga lah kena bagi hadiah sama angpau. Cehwah~ (tua-tua pun masih kena bagi kah juga? punya siok kalau gini.) Terasa macam Chinese New Year pun ada nih. Ahaha~

My mom bagi hadiah lambat sikit nih. Kena tunggu cukup bulan baru dapat nih. Mesti kamu curious kan? Rozelle Daniella. Tuh lah hadiah saya. (bukan jenama jam tangan, kasut atau baju dan sewaktu dengan nya tau nih. ahaha~) Gift that I never be forgotten. Kenapa?? Sebab tepat jam 3:50 pm, 22 March 2012 telah lahir seorang bayi yang diberi nama Rozelle Daniella. Piewitttt~ Happy nih!! My mom selamat melahirkan baby girl!! Yes!! Saya ada adik sudah nih!! Selama 20 tahun lamanya saya bergelar anak tunggal, baru sekarang dapat adik. (punya lama~ kenapa? tak percaya ker?) Ahaha~ 

Look! My little sister! (punya kiut~ montel-montel lagi. sampai ada orang cakap muka adik saya nih macam kartun Shin Chan. ahaha~ punya lar~) Mesti tertanya-tanya kan kenapa sekarang baru dapat adik? Mmm. Bukan tidak mahu bagitau tapi tuh adalah privacy.. (rahsia kerajaan bah. kalau mau tau juga, kita jumpa dalam mimpi, saya akan bagitau anda. hehehe~) Ahaha~ Actually, saya mahukan adik lelaki, supaya dapat bawa bergusti.. Ahaha~ But nevermind lah, adik pompuan pun okay juga. Ada juga teman mengumpat. Ahaha~ LOL!! Sometimes, kalau jalan-jalan pergi mana dengan my mom, mesti kenalan-kenalan my mom akan tanya, “Eh! Bila lagi dapat cucu nih?” Perggghhh! Odoi!! Punya lar~ Saya masih muda. I am not married yet bah!! Huhuhu~ (bf pun belum ada, macam mana mau kawin makcik oi) @.@’

Now, my little sister nih mahu masuk satu tahun sudah. Odoi~ Nih budak sangat nakal. (kadang-kadang saya kasi nangis nih. ahaha~ jahat kan saya. ahaha~) Special thing with us. Age distance between we one family. My parents and I is 20 years distance, And then, it's same distance between me and my little sister. Ahaha~ (special kan~ ahaha~) Rozelle Daniella or her nick name is Nella is my special gift from GOD. I love it!! And it's never be forgotten forever!! Hehehe~ J

"No matter what age you are, or what your circumstances might be, you are special, and you still have something unique to offer. Your life, because of who you are, has meaning."

Weird!!!

It's between me and him. Who's he? I won't tell you anyway. (kejam kah? tidak bah kan..) Actually, I know he first before he know me and then become friend. I think it is just a fluke which I saw a photo of him together with my cousin. (nampak di pesbuk jak bah) My first impression, pretty boy with a beautiful smile.. LOL!! Ahaha~ But its true, he really got a beautiful smile. (apa yang saya nampak lah, maklumlah kabur-kabur nih mata nih..ahaha~) I being a stalker, view his wall and most important one is read his info.  He seems to be my focus for the day. And then, I really don’t know why I click ADD FRIEND. I never add people that I don’t know. Pergghhh! Weird!! On my mind, would he ACCEPT my friend request? Or ignore it?? A few day later, I saw this in my notification "**** ******* accepted your friend request". Woah! We are friend already. (dalam pesbuk saja lah) Ehehe~ I think most of his post I click 'Like'. Entah macam mana, pada suatu hari tuh kami 'berchat' plak. He said that I'm the lucky one. Sebab dia jarang reply message orang dalam facebook nih. (kambang hidung saya nih..punya lar~ahaha..)

Mmm.. You know who this guy? He is an actress who starred in the 1 liter of tears drama. (japanese drama) Muka kawan saya tuh seiras macam nih lah. (40 % only..) Ahaha~ Maybe he had a big laugh after seeing this picture. Ahaha~ LOL!! He also have told me about someone that he fall in love. But he did not tell the girl. (aiyooo..dia just bagi 'hint' saja nih..) It's a very long story. Mmm.. At the ending of the story, dia putus asa sama tuh pompuan. (adalah bah sebab dia tuh..) Now, we're friends almost three years but we never met even once. (kasian kan..) Maybe he was too busy. Or maybe because I know everything bout him, that's why he does not want to meet me. Ataupun dia fikir saya gila?? Adeii~ Terlampau banyak assumption nih.. Uhuhu~ (kasi pindik cerita, teda jodoh lah bah tuh..ehehe~) But not everything saya tahu pasal dia nih. It's just a little bit only. Saya sendiri pun tidak tahu macam mana saya boleh tahu pasal dia nih. Ahaha~ Maybe, I have a magic power to know about someone that I wanna know. Ahaha~ LOL!!

This is what he share with me .. One and only .. I do not know that he still remember this or not.. Eeee ~ why I'm telling you about him ... Weird .. Weird right??!! Pergghhh!! Totally weird!!!!!!!! o(╥﹏╥)o

"Being Friend With YOU Has Added A Bright Spot To My Life"

2 Days 1 Night - 2nd MICE Program 2012 (Grand Borneo Hotel)

Firstly, let me explain, what is 'MICE'? (not a mouse) MICE is stand for Meetings, Incentives, Conventions and Exhibitions. MICE subject are compulsory for all Tourism student in our college. MICE is used to refer to a particular type of tourism in which large groups, usually planned well in advance. Here, we learn how to manage an event. This subject are same like Event Management subject. For me, this two subject is very enjoyable. I like it so much. And I've done a few of event before. Now, I and all the senior student just play, have fun and enjoy the game because now junior turn, they have to try manage an event like what we do before.

First day..
Our first program is Hospitality and Tourism Talk (Towards The New Millennium). First speaker is YM Dato' Seri Dr Tengku Zainal Adlin (Chairman of Sabah Tourism Board/Board of Director) and the other one is Jeffry Yahya@Cobra (Sabah Homestay Association). They tell us about their experience in this industry. Their experience makes me feel excited to develop Sabah/Malaysia in the eyes of the world. Hopefully, I can be one of them in the future.

(Student of Hospitality and Tourism Management, Cosmopoint College Of Technology/Kuala Lumpur Metropolitan University College)

Second program is Official Launch of 2 Days 1 Night - 2nd MICE Program (Strive To Excel) by YM Dato' Seri Dr Tengku Zainal Adlin (Chairman of Sabah Tourism Board/Board of Director).

From left: Mr Victor Sylvester (Director East Malaysia), YM Dato' Seri Dr Tengku Zainal Adlin (Chairman of Sabah Tourism Board/Board of Director), Madam Hadariati Nonchi (Lecturer School of Tourism Management) and Madam Mimi Renati Zainol (Centre Manager Cosmopoint College of Technology)

Third program is Bowling Tournament (Hospitality and Tourism Open 2012). This time I just became a referee (calculate scores) and also be supporter. This is because I don't know how to play bowling. Ehehe~ But don't worry be happy because I will learn it soon. (:

(Affren Chin our Tourism Club President take his turn to play. Nice stunt Mr. President. Ahaha~)

Fourth and final program on that day is Dinner (Masquerade Night). The night where I will be performing. Actually, my group member ask me to dance together with them but I don't know how to dance. So, I decided to sing. And the tittle of my song is Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade. So excited!! Ahaha~

Unfortunately, what is planned not to be. My friend forgot to bring minus one of my song. So disappointed.

(SMILE!! That's me and my friend. I sit in the middle.)

Second and the last day..
Early morning, maybe 5:30am or 6:00am I were shocked by 'wake up call' from Front Office Department. I think they call us more than 3 times. Huh! Annoying~ I just woke up alone and I also answering the call. Two of my friends still sleeping and dreaming. =.=' And then, I pulled my blanket and continue sleep. Ahaha~ On that day, we are free (just for senior student) because we are not involved any presentation. How lucky we are .. Ehehe~

(Here we are!! Both of them is my BESTFRIEND.)

Four event for two days one night. Very tired but does not matter because it is very worthwhile. We have obtained a lot of knowledge and a lot of experience. Not everyone got what we got today. Thanks to our lecturer Madam Hadariati Nonchi, who are always teach us with patience because we are quite naughty. Ahaha~ 

"It's the game of life. Do I win or do I lose? One day they're gonna shut the game down. I gotta have as much fun and go around the board as many times as I can before it's my turn to leave."

HUH??

Hello! Hi, there! What I want to say? (nervous) Ahaha ~ Actually, this is the first time I post something serious here for this year (2013) and after 3 years I made ​​this blog. This is because I do not know what the function of this blog and I also do not care about it. (very embarrassing) Ehehe ~ Before this, I only made ​​perfunctory. OMG!! I very badly. But it does not matter, no one is perfect. Right? (:

"I'm most proud of the blessings that God has bestowed upon me, in my life .. He's given me the vision to truly see that you can fall down, but you can still get back up .. Hopefully I'll learn from my mistakes and have the opportunity to strengthen and improve the next thing I do .. "